Archive for February, 2014

Once you start down this road…part 2

In all the rants I’ve posted, and all videos I’ve watched and shared, and all the information I’ve ever found nothing has ever hit closer to home, as did a video I watched a few days ago. First They Came For The Anarchist Yet another event that I didn’t know about. I mean…this stuff is popping up like a mass of moles, everywhere. I did some research, after watching the video and found the full statement from the girl in question. She has pretty much disappeared after her release. The rest of that story must be buried.
I’ve never identified as an anarchist. That’s not the point. The information given by the independent journalist and author of “Green is the New Red” was enough to make my blood run cold. I  wanted to unplug everything and never post another word of warning, information or dissent again. Then I realized that hey..I’ve already said enough, so if they’re gonna get me they’re just gonna. Home schooled, Christian and libertarian …yeah I’m done son.
So what the hell.
This year is going to a year of shaking,Awakening and allot discord. Try to see past the bickering to the bigger picture. That doesn’t mean be apathetic. I have never ever been one to say ” oh in the long run it doesn’t matter” I don’t think we were put here to be that way. Everyone who follows any of my blogs knows I’m a Christian, so I’m not going to warn anyone anymore.
For most of my life I’ve seen Christian activist try to maintain or save a system. Or try to pray down a revival. I think what is happening needs to be assessed on a very personal level. Even the spiritual revival aspect of it. Once in a moment of prayer and admonishment, a teacher of mine in Bible College told us ” I don’t care if you get the paper here, I don’t care if you stay here- just KNOW God”. In some odd way, I wondered if she was telling some of us to run, and not get confused. By a system. If we truly internalize and KNOW what we have claimed we believe than we know who our enemy is. It’s not a person or people, and we know the enemy has always had the goal of setting himself up as god. That’s what happened in the garden and that’s what happened with the Tower of Babel and that’s what happens in the book of Revelation. We know that Jesus is returning, and when He does He isn’t going to ask ” did you defend your democracy”? hey when He was on earth, his followers wanted him to overthrow the government but He wouldn’t – this was not what He came for. That whole battle was never intended to be ours. He is going to ask what we did with His name.
We need to look at our history – all of it, not just the quotes that we like and that make us feel all warm and fuzzy and realize that the spirit of domination has always weaved and now it’s just closing in. I have written allot of poetry lines lately about mirrors. Everything seems to be mirroring something before…all the way back to the beginning. Some may know what I’m talking about and others may think I’m just riddling. Tower of Babel, Babylon, tribes of Israel, skip to us and it’s a the genocide/ colonization of the first people now mirroring back on the rest of society. It’s been in progress for years …make the people dependent, make the people apathetic then punish the people for biting the proverbial hand that feeds them.
This is where allot of people just don’t want to go, in their mind. It really makes them uncomfortable. We talk allot about standing in the gap, and days of repentance and sins of our fathers but we sure clean up ” our fathers” history before we ask that forgiveness. A thing has to acknowledged and not explained away, before reconciliation is ever possible. I’ve really started to wonder about the death of Richard Twiss, he died in DC. …and he made allot of people uncomfortable. Something has never set well with me about that. But maybe I’ve just been reading too much. In respect for the Twiss family I’ll just leave that wondering.
Apathy or culture clash wars of emotion. Everyone fights about rights. They don’t stop and really FEEL what they are fighting about. I’m pro life and have a friend who is not. Once she made a joke that ” if men could get pregnant there would be an abortion clinic on every corner and it would be free”. I answered to her ” so…? Would that make it right?”. I saw a picture online the other day, the photographer stated it was two city workers who had to unclog the pipes from an abortion clinic…you can use your common sense to know what was clogging them. Desensitization for life here…on one side it’s done one way and on the other side it’s done another way- but everyone likes to look at sky and whistle…
The big evil banker man that has been made to be everyone’s enemy….well look up the “suicides” of some bankers who most obviously did not commit suicide. Why are they being killed? Follow the crumbles. Things are so much more nuanced. Nothing is black and white- question everything. The mirrors…
On a side note….
By the way is only reliable for determining scam emails and posts. The rest of it is a politically funded filter to “tell” you what’s real or not real. It’s good for showing up your friends who blindly repost insane rumors on Facebook, but don’t let it be your final answer on anything else. Pretty sly scheme there right? Look up what or who owns snopes. Fukushima IS really happening and no one is being a radical environmentalist for educating people about it. The radical environmentalist are the ones who want us all to feel guilty for being humans and basically breathing and trying to make a living – yeah the ones with their hands in politicians pockets, who like all special interest, sold their soul somewhere. Allot of things are just common sense, but it takes coming out of apathy and being willing to be educated and grow as a person. Cannabis can cure literally hundreds of human ailments, and hemp can cure thousands of environmental ailments, as well as provide thousands of materials without waste. Think differently and lets stop making jokes about it. Let’s get real, let’s be educated- by ourselves for ourselves. Maybe it’s easy for me, I was homeschooled, I was taught to enjoy learning. To say all this doesn’t matter because the world is going to end one day, is like saying ” God doesn’t care if I trash my body because it’s only my spirit he wants and this body will die one day”. Yeah, that’s stupid and selfish. We are supposed to be responsible. In word thought and deed.
That was my rant, or rather the thought vent. Because thinking is still legal, they just don’t want you to know it. Allot going on in my mind and soul, because once you start down this road…it’s a domino effect…and there ain’t no going back.


Once You Start Down This Road…part 1

“Are you Indian or something?”
I stop, I stare , I’m quiet …. I’m trying to figure what I did to warrant the question. ” Is that your fascination?”
What did I post?…. I had tried to not post most of the things I had been reading. But Facebook is a Mecca for whatever a person is looking at in the moment and we have been conditioned to push a ” like” or ” share” button and … hey everyone sees the John Trudell banner on my FB , but nobody ( that I know) that I ask even knows who that is….although I educate them readily.
” are you Indian or something?”
It’s such a loaded answer, not so much a loaded question , or maybe it is- depending on who is asking it.
My thoughts go to my mother, who has never had a problem saying she was Cherokee. She has dark hair, the higher cheek bones, all the things people generally associate with ” looking” like an “Indian” except she has green eyes and her hair is not Disney Pocahontas straight.
My grandfather was probably more than half Cherokee. I didn’t know my great grandfather, it is said that he held me and kissed my forehead when I was an infant, and this is something that apparently was a surprise at the moment. He died when I was still a baby, and I don’t remember him. I do remember my great grandmother though. We would go see her, when I was a child, and every time we went mom always had something for her. Be it pictures of us children,or be it food. We always brought something,and before we left she had always gave us so something, usually off her many shelves of nick nacks, I remember receiving many cat figurines from her. As a young adult I would go with my grandfather to see her, and it was the same. It just was, and I never thought much about it. I didn’t compare and contrast any habits of my mothers side of the family with that of my dads.
When I was in my twenties my mother once stated to me that I didn’t have to fill in those stupid race boxes that pretty much appear on everything now days. ” you don’t have to answer those and you don’t have to put that you are white”. Mom look at me… Seriously. Her sentiment was that the American Indian people are the only people anywhere that have to ” prove” they are their own people. Well that’s great,but to me, my mother and my grandfather were the Indians- obviously I was not. I’m as pale as Bella from ” Twilight”. I remember when my mom tried to do an ancestry tree, and this was before and after her grandfather had died. Later in my life, I took the free month trial from… While my fathers side of the family , with just a few names blossomed with all those green leaves that brand “” ,my mothers fathers side stopped after the great grandfather who I don’t remember. It was hard enough to find his fathers name, and after that there was nothing. Like they just appeared in the mountains of Tennessee. What was surprising was that my great grandmother’s family seemed to be just as difficult. I let it go,I wasn’t looking for a card and the reasons some people did look for a card kind of bothered me, I just wanted to know. My great grandmother Green had died in my early twenties and I was coming on thirty. My grandfather as well as my grandmother had died and maybe I was realizing that I knew more about my fathers side of the family, even though they were much older, than I did my mothers. Maybe I was missing my grandfather, who knows but I tried to find something. I couldn’t, and I let it go. Like I said,no one ever lived on a reservation in my family, and there was no ancient story about a mythical ” Cherokee princess ” that never existed anywhere in time ever. My great grandfather was Cherokee and my grandfather when talking about Indians never ever talked about it in third person, he always said ” us”. So does my mom. It just is, it just was and who has to prove or argue anything ?
It was during a Netflix binge of documentaries and looking at faces that looked so much like my great grandmother that I realized that she had also been a Cherokee, then I started remembering small things,the gift giving..the way none of the Green family ever knocked on the door when they went to see her and the way ( depending on who it is and who in the family they have come to see) still don’t knock on the door. They just walk in. My grandfather saying ” us”. I was close with my grandfather, and I miss him often.
I tried my hand at ancestry again. Nothing. How do people just appear out of nowhere? I discussed this with my mother, who told me it WAS BECAUSE they were part of the Indians who escaped to the mountains and were not on the trail of tears. Who lived as they could without signing anything lest they be driven out…or who were rejected from The Dawes. She got me Wilma Mankiller’s book, which is equally a history of the people and of Wilma. The Dawes and The Bakers and the cards,it used to not even be this way. Chief John Ross was one eighth and some members of the tribes of the Chrokee throughout history were adopted in, blood quantum recording was the governments doing, and somehow this released me from ever feeling I has to explain anything ever again. Not for me, not for my mom and not for my grandad, and no it isn’t a “fascination”.For years if I said “my grandad”or “my great grandfather was Cherokee,” there were five other people it seemed who had the same claim and they all wanted to chime in…except their stories were further back in history and sounded straight out of Hollywood,and so I would just be quiet. Hey Bella from twilight can’t compete with all that. And I have so many ethnic friends who liked their white girl anyway, and all of them claimed me for their own.
But like I said, some things just are. When people ask me what my married name once was and I tell them it was “Wolf” without an “E” and they laugh about it, I’m kind of offended. Well my granddads name was Green… And there are many Green names on the wall at the Cherokee Removal Memorial Park. My great grandmothers maiden name was “Yell”… not ” Yale” and according to what she told my mother it was shortened from “Yells-across the water”. So laugh at that. I also cringe when people act like native people on reservations get whatever they want , like they are sitting in mini mansions out on Pine Ridge, this is not just uneducated – it is a willingness to be ridiculous and ignorant. (I could say a lot more here, but I won’t. It’s not my job to educate you on the governments policies and tell you how now it’s being implemented everywhere , it’s my job to get you to think about that very concept and do your own compare and contrast. In the words of Russell Means ” welcome to the reservation” …are any of you millionaires who get what you want?)
When I watched ” Reel Injun” and found out there was once a near two year occupation of Alcatraz, in the same time frame as every other ” movement” that gets hailed and written about …and somehow I never knew about this one, I was kind of pissed off. Books are written about every movement, and reprinted over and over and they fill isles in the big box book stores ….but not this one… Even the very recent ” We are Still Here”…can’t be found except on Amazon. Little summary books about the movements in the sixties and seventies ( I have some ) and AIM is somehow overlooked. I kind of felt cheated. To make sure that I didn’t just sleep through the class that might have covered it, or missed it in the tv movie ” The Seventies” I asked some friends if they knew..they didn’t. (They did when I got through…we are the generation of Netflix and YouTube , if we aren’t informed it’s our own fault.)
I never related in my reading about the women’s movement that much, it’s not the world I know and although I’m sure it did good, I hate having to define myself as a woman by Gloria Steinem’s standards and so I don’t, although I understand – being in the south- the patriarchal/ chivalrous fantasy of men over women, I have had both good and bad experiences with that reality….no offense…. I just get tired of the demonization men. I shouldn’t say I related to this one, because realistically I didn’t but much of what was being said in the old news reels sounded familiar, I had heard the terminology before….”us”. There were other conspiracy things later on in my searches in native documentaries and speeches that directly related to things another family member had told me,things relating to the world at large(that’s for another blog…maybe part 2) and it all came back to me in my endeavor to find our about the AIM of the seventies, and figure out why the hell I didn’t know about it.
My mother once told me that when she dressed certain ways as a teen,she got some dirty looks- I just figured that people thought she was a hippie….but maybe they didn’t. There are two major extremes, to people who just don’t know… You are either making a deal about nothing and hailing something that no longer REALLY exists, or you are something mystic out of a mythic world, like you don’t really exist yourself.
” Are you an Indian or something, is that your fascination?”.
It wasn’t a derogatory question on the askers part, and then I remembered I had posted pictures from my visit to the Cherokee Removal park. The first time I’ve actually cried in the presence of stone walls with names that I don’t even know listed on them.
” my great grandparents were, I have just been reading allot lately that’s all… No I don’t have a card and I probably can’t ever get one but that’s really irrelevant to me, and I’m not looking for one… That whole thing is the governments doing anyway”.
That’s my sentiment now. I met a woman once ,who worked for years to find her ancestry and she told me ” once you start down that road there’s no going back”. I didn’t know what she meant then but I do now, it’s like a domino effect, finding out information – whether it’s logged in slave roles or not, and how it all links together changes you. What you don’t know changes you… And when what you haven’t known meets what you do know – it changes you.


The advancing tyranny

Yeah, I said it. Some things to look up(google hit words) …nuisance abatement teams…common core….Agenda 21…the core list….all of these things work together for the common good of the state controlling its citizens-mainly the poor ones. I have come to see that it will be the poor ones, because those are the ones that have been cornered and kept enslaved in a welfare system and then made to feel that they “need” the state and state imposed goods have expanded tremendously just in the last couple of years. I am not speaking as someone that does not know what it is like to be in that system, I grew up in it, so I am not trying to speak from an “us” and “them”…it is getting harder and harder for anyone to make. The people are now being “made” poor. People who self sustain off grid here in America are being forced to move, they have no idea where they will go…because they barely “make it” now, but nobody cares right? They live off the grid and they don’t “contribute” right? They have actually been living on their own and exactly the way they want to, with no thought to whether they have neighbors to impress. As much as the far left have manipulated the poorer communities, personally I would think they would be voicing the absurdity of this issue..but see the goal has NEVER been to allow a person to live the way they want or “Self-sustain” the goal has always been to control. This is the reasoning behind…pretty much everything that is used and adopted by the government. Think about this, the environmental movement has gotten support from politicians…but what has it done? Nothing. Anything that has been considered, just puts more controls on what the citizen can and cannot do-like those dang over priced energy efficient light bulbs that we HAVE to buy now. Like the ban on smoking anywhere, including in our own apartment (depending on where you live). Back to the conversation about off grid people, many of those people were not using electricity…some of them were living energy efficient lives…but apparently that is no good to the system -so really environmentalism is just a new tool, just like other “isms” of the past have been tools. The heart of the matter is lost in a myriad of insanity that benefits no one. It is the reason industrial hemp has not been tackled by political environmentalist. 

   It is like waves that go back and forth, they play on people and peoples convictions, values or angers. If you don’t have certain values or angers then they will propagate a thing to introduce you to it, then play like they are the only ones who can fix and so-this bill, or legislation or tax must be implemented. I often say that Ron Paul saved my intelligence. I never understood most of this until I finally got sick of the same old crap every four years,and actually LISTENED to what Paul said. Hey, if talking heads on BOTH sides (right wing/left wing) say someone is a radical or a nut or a hippie, then maybe just maybe that radical hippie nut is saying something that is not supposed to be said or at least heard. Well “Dr. No” is no longer in congress, and although people have finally woken up to the libertarian party and Rand Paul’s throat is getting sore from filibustering the non stop insanity, we might have woke up too late. There may be a dark reason that media is finally allowing these people to be heard. Now there is an uprising in the libertarian party, and people are finally willing to educate themselves, because all we have seen is complete and utter insanity…and for once we are ALL willing to call it just that. From here on out I’m speaking from my perspective as a Christian person, and will be tying what I see, what has been and what has been foretold.. because I am a Christian person and I have allot of concerns for my fellow Christian people…so in the words of someone I have allot of respect for…”if I say anything that you don’t agree with…let’s just leave it at that..we don’t agree”. 

        As a Christian I do feel like I have been had, not because of my spiritual life, but because for a long time maybe I did not have a spiritual life. Before I go further here, I need to say that the basis for Christianity and the adherence to the belief that there is a God who created earth and mankind, begins with the word that God created the earth, breathed on the dust of the earth and created man. That is a spiritual belief. We are created in the image of God, we are dirt people-all of us. My relationship with the creator of the universe,through His son that took human form for a short while, is a personal spiritual relationship.The words may have been taken out of context or twisted-by powers that be in order to enslave, but that is the way evil works. When Jesus was tempted during His fast, the devil quoted scripture to Him…that is something to think about there. I say this because someone I admire very much said a few years ago that Americans needed to prepare themselves because they were about to be taken to the place “where spirits are eaten”. I can see that…I can see that because allot of my people don’t understand their personal relationship anymore, it is just another belief tolerated among many and this is the one that they chose. Or, it is what they call themselves if they have to check a box on a form, or  they take the ten commandments and try to impress them or legislate morality and if that cannot be done then their faith is shaken to its core…because our faith has been in the wrong thing for a long long long time. More and more legislation is being pushed in a very blatant way, and then there are secretive things going on in a very underhanded way. I say I feel that I have been had, because my first vote ever, was for Bush. Refer to the beginning of this post when I talked about politics using your convictions, yes. Buzzwords. Trigger words. I remember the left media, and certain people I knew bashing the “evangelicals” and “religious right”. Well….the religious right and evangelicals for the most part did not vote for what is going on now. At least not most of the evangelicals that I know. Some still cling to the “belief” that President Obama is trying “clean up the mess” that Bush made…well…OK if that helps you sleep at night. Personally, the way I see it, the skeleton of this beast was being built for years, and the current administration is just fleshing it out. They are not fixing anything, they are just building on it. Buzz words…triggers… The way it has always been but through time it just got faster and more blatant. 
  I say I feel I have been had, not meaning that I am no longer Christian, but meaning I fell for political involvement and participation in systems that are man made, trying to fight them in the name of God, and thought that made me a better person, a good Christian -you know because Christ was all involved in the rallies of His time right? (no He wasn’t). Blindly, I went with the motions. To passively allow abortion is to aid and abet in abortion, like the citizens of Germany that knew the holocaust was going on and said and did nothing, right? So anyone who says they are against abortion and uses that as a platform must be the one to get the vote …right?  Because to vote for a third party would mean that innocent blood is on our hands…right? There is the lie. Here is where something critical is missing…it is called thinking, not jumping on emotional band wagons-and I dare say abortion is a tool used by both parties to push hot buttons on either side of the isle. Hitler used the same Bible, and the same God that I say that I know, to do what he did to human beings. Our government has also “used” God to blind the “Christian nation” while they have a whole secret system that would make most of us physically sick if we knew about. The only thing Jesus said to do in His name, was tell His story-tell what He came to do and tell that He was coming back…and love and heal people while we did it.  The disciples went and did this, and if the communities did not accept then they left and went to the next one, they were killed and persecuted-by religious governments…backed by emotionally charged citizens. Just like Jesus was crucified. However-all of them knew that this would happen. They did not work with the “system” to ensure that it would not happen. The thing is people like to look at this and think that the eradication and outlawing of religious practices are the answer…however we can look at systems that have done that and see that the sate itself becomes the oppressive religion-just like they were before they are just not hiding it behind God anymore…  I think we have been set up for that.

          The system is arrogant and prideful in it’s attempts to dominate and celebrates its domination and its use of “God”…or rather now it’s rejection of God. and today those words “pride” “ignorance” “arrogance” “hate” is synonymous with Christianity, to those who don’t know an actual Christian as a human being outside of mechanical church visits and routines and conservative political arguments…or democratic political arguments...and those words were never ours.They are exactly what we are told not to be or do or put on. We started relying on this system long ago, to ensure that we were secure, and in securing our beliefs with the system we became just like them. Pride is taught against more than anything else in the Bible-pride and idolatry.We have had allot of pride, and arrogance and idolatry. More than anything else we have had fear, and we have reacted out of fear-not out of faith or trust or our God given common sense. Many are upset that America is rejecting openly (by its leaders) Christian principles, but that was done eons ago. Just because they said to our face that we were a Christian nation, does not mean that we were. Behind closed doors nothing was Godly. Just because they said “God bless America” does not mean that we were God’s cosmic pet. Rome is burning, the house of cards is falling, and internally we better know who we are -on a personal level. What defines you as a person, and what defines your relationship with God, because the facade is over and veil is off. We cant hide behind masks anymore. The American dream is over-and a dream is probably is all it ever was. It served its purpose, and now they are gonna use something else, someone else, in their attempt of completing the new tower of babel. Babylon…yeah. It is an evil power. If there is a totally evil power system, note that it does come from the beginning attempt to dismantle God. Satan is the father of lies, deceit, arrogance and pride and he seeks whom he may devour. He fools, and if you think you are too holy to be fooled then you already have been. We are told in Revelation that the anti Christ (false Christ) will fool many…well I think that as emotionally angry as many people are right at this moment-the next guy that comes in could be charming and use soothing “buzz words” and people would fall for it. He would be the opposite (on the outset) he would probably get many many “Christians” on his side…and the people who actually read their Bible, and think (meditate on it) will KNOW that this a product of evil. Speaking of arrogance and pride…so many of us forget that Christians are killed all over this world. I saw a video the other day of Christians in China getting Bibles. They were smelling them and crying. Under communism, Bibles were taken away from them in 1949. We think it wont happen to us. Note Christianity just went underground, people were killed bringing it and people were killed or imprisoned for practicing it…but it doesn’t mean they didn’t do it. It became hidden in the heart. It was personal…it was relational..not ten points and a poem about prosperity on Sunday. Oh it’s coming here, it has been primed and set for years, the very attitude in the air is changing, I can actually feel this. The temperaments are primed for our enslavement and it will probably be a religious system that does it. As I said, a religious system even if it does not claim a god makes itself one…and because we will know, and we are being watched and spied on and controlled (because that system is not going anywhere) they will know that we see through it and they will know we are not going to go with this. There has always been a difference in a political whore and a follower of Christ. In any history of oppressive things being done using Christians as puppets, and God as the reason, there have always been a few Christ followers who were against that system and called out the atrocities, usually they end up in prison, or silenced or killed. It is coming.The ones who don’t care, and want what they want and want it right now, well…their spirits have already been eaten. The ones who know who we are and to who we belong, they can do what they want but our spirits go back to God.

 So that is my transformation and realizing how the government never changes its policies, but it sure uses our emotions to blind us so we don’t see what they are doing….or if we do, we avert our eyes and accept it, for false security..for fear. I’m not afraid anymore.

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